2010

 Suggestion: Copy the link and listen to City On Our Knees while reading

http://www.myspace.com/tobymac/music/songs/city-on-our-knees-54688882

This year has been packed with all sorts of growth. I don't even know where to start.
I wrecked a car, lost a job, had a great friend killed in a car accident, grew in faith, moved out of my mom's house, got a tattoo...

and spent the year with most amazing girl I have ever met in my life.

and I lived...

I did not hold anything back, and I have absolutely no regrets.
If next year is half of what this one was then I'm set.
I hope the people close in my life shared what i shared.
My family and friends support me everyday and I love them so much for it.
It's ten minutes away from a new year. 2011 is starting with a bang.
One of my biggest resolutions is to go even further this year. To be more selfless than I have ever been.
To love people more than I love myself. To give to others, what they have given to me this year.
God works in the most mysterious ways, and if I trust him I cannot fall.
Happy new year everyone.

Struggles

I wonder if everyone feels trials the same way I do..
Knowing everything will be okay, but still feeling like you deserve to be upset and pretend like your world is over.
Sometimes I feel so trapped in my own head and I don't do the mature thing and step back and realize everyone else deals with the same things I do. They live in the same world.
But when it comes to losing, the person affected tends to feel a little over dramatic.
I think it is even worse when you have lost and are put in a position to feel like you haven't lost because of the people around you. You are forced to pull a blanket over your emotions and feelings because they will just hurt those around you.
But the sad part in this, is it is the right thing to do, but you will never get commended for it because you are hiding it. It becomes extremely discouraging when the good deeds you do will get over looked.
Even though I know it is the right thing to do, and I should do the right thing for me, I'm just  not that humble.
It is something I am working on though. 
Life is very easy to go through when you give excuses for everything, and I tend to do that.
I want to change that and I am starting with this situation. 
I've lost something dear to me. It's hard when you are hurt and can't show it. But it will make me stronger in the end. And instead of losing myself or excusing the future, I will grow... hmmph.. growing pains..