I dont

like it when I can't talk to someone or things go differently than I want.
Or someone doesn't recognize when I am frustrated at them or doesn't care

possible plan

to move to Albuquerque, New Mexico in the next two years. Was informed on a church needing help and I felt a sharp calling. I am sort of excited because I like responsibility. I am going up there some time in the next three months and that will determine whether or not I am going to go. They need a worship coordinator, and I was recommended for the job. Hopefully summer project will go through this year and international mission will go through next year (God willing) and I feel like that will better prepare me. We will see. It's nice feeling a plan

I really like

when public bathrooms use good toilet paper, especially when it's better than the toilet paper i use at home..
that is all.

Yet another

Leg swept out from under me. I feel alone now, God. I feel so much pain from this world. I really hope this is the part where you give me peace. I need it. I don't just want it. I feel worthless..

I am

Feeling pretty broken.. God, am I there yet? Or do I need more? Because I am not sure how much more I can take.. You do. But I feel like I am about to give up. So I am literally begging you. Please make it go away.

Change

What happens when change is not always for the better, but it is completely out of your control?
You did absolutely nothing wrong, but life just changes and you lose something you once had?
Sometimes I can't wait for Heaven, so I don't have to be upset anymore.
God is the only absolute in this world. The only thing I can ever rely on to stay the same..
I am so tired of being let down by worldly things and people

Love

What you need to understand is the God loves you.

You. For everything you are.

Nothing you do can ever change that.

Stop trying to do things to please God, stop praying to fix things, stop doing works to earn your faith. 

What you need to understand is that if you believe the truth that Jesus died for you, YOU ARE FORGIVEN.

Nothing YOU do will ever change God's love. 

So instead of the approach of, "I need to quit sinning, I need to stop that addiction, I need to fix that...."

Approach life with the attitude that YOU are NOT STRONG. 

Completely rely on God, knowing you will always sin but he loves you. And here is the catch.

You need to forgive yourself, no matter the circumstances. Because if you don't, you are saying that God is wrong.

If Perfection can look at all of your imperfections and love you endlessly, you darn should be able to.

That is the reason judging is so dangerous. Because you are going behind God and putting a label on someone who doesn't have to have it. Jesus Removes that label.

If you can comprehend this, it will free you.

You no longer will be standing still in this world chained by your sins, but constantly moving forward.

Love God, love yourself.